Self defense mechanism

Amazing what you can do when pressed. Its just plain creepy actually. I nvr understood before thinking it could be carried out fully logically. After having a taste of it, its not an addiction.. Just that suddenly there is a hole you never knew was there and you need to fill it NAO. Thank goodness for my filters or that hole may just yet be filled with crap? Which would set me on round 2 of nutness. Now i know what i am looking for :)

Confirmation and Acceptance

It probably was just manifesting itself, nothing much to it at all. Cant stop the raging green monster inside me totally but it is supressable. I'll just concentrate on these two weeks first and then sort that mess i call my brain then. Judgement has been distorted lately to make it seem more pleasant but its certainly gonna be very hard

Edit : or is it selective and theres a point in everything. Being cairheirnin means planning for every possibility with my crazy paranoid brain. also colours are good Aes Sedai tools esp when most people dont believe sth can taste or feel a colour =P or i am just whacko

Just a little more

Just need to hold on out these 2 days and then after one more week and i am clear. Gonna get that bunch of B's ... once and for all

Why did it seem like just another class test till i see the green faces and go in

Shut down

Brain juz wont let me go to bed after 3 bloody hours. It just keeps running over all sorts of things...
You chose a good time to invade my mind...

Piaa

Its not abt chionging le. Its just time to piaaa. Thx so much for supporting me everyone=D i now know that the cake is a LIE because the cake i am looking for doesnt exist! The paper itself is the cake! It cant be hard. Its soft!!

And i know not many people will not agree with me but i do respect Idra for more than just his macro

Apple

@.@ i now own a white apple. LOL at myself, so much for thinking i wont ever get one

Testing Waters

Here comes a new challenger! You dont even need hypedawg to hype this up. Its difficult enough alrd. Just like Makoto Nanaya, she speaks for herself ( as opposed to platinum the trinity needing Hypedog=P). The thing is, just like myself and a certain others, you can do it without letting the person know for sure. With a faulty brain, i may juz start begin to jump to conclusions. With such an ironic choice of topic it is such mental torture. Yet i cant stop myself craving for more. Thats probably what opening yourself to saidin or saidar feels like. I always felt Robert Jordan crafted that system in tune to love or sex. The biggest sick joke of it all is that i still cant decide all the way if its coincidence, intention or both. My senses must be dulling or you people are too good. If only i could see the face...
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Just realised how much Ji 'e toh was so similar to Bushido
And guess the wheel of fortune sometimes rotate in our favour!
"Then again, being Aes Sedai is about fine distinctions

Edit: why the he'll am I still awake now? So much for fixing my sleep time. Brain just won't stop working away... It's so easy to be smiling away that whole time. Effortless compared to even just a minute of faking a smile. Or even just to look normal.