What achievements mean

The thrill of going 12 in arena. And then it hits you. So what if you are able to do that. Modern / game day / exams whatever. in the end theres no meaning unless i have someone to share it with. i would gladly trade all that for just 5 minutes. So damn jealous when i see those marks. So damn stupid. Why did i ever resolve to try. Why did he have to give me hope. fuck

self righteousness

In the end , everyone is different. Who are you to judge and say you know best what we want. Sure there's valid points but watch the way you condescend without stopping to enquire. Then again we live on a condescending world. That's why I like him I guess. He would just cock his head, take some time to think about it, smile and say ok. He makes me feel so natural and normal. I can totally be myself and he would appreciate and understand it.

Judges Familiar

"It misses nothing and it has no sense of humor." —Barvisa, courtroom scribe sadly i do have a sense of humor. and i definitely know what fucking happened that day. thats not what someone would do even if they are freeizng. you can explain away all the rest if you want but i know exactly what he was thinking. and has obviously made a decision. welcome to bad timing as usual. hopefully i redeem myself soon/ get redeemed. fked.

See the flow in between the lines

its funny, we both hate to be beholden by it. we both can see the flow and probably know exactly what to do in order to make more none of us jump at it because it doesnt satisfy us at all however its a dumb base need as a means to help achieve what will satisfy us and we hate to see the ones we love beholden to it and so we fight

you say it best, when you say nothing at all

That's not quite exactly what it means till you hear out and experience the rest of the song " the smile on your face lets me know that you that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me, the touch of your hand says you'll catch me, whenever I fall. You say it best when you say nothing at all" All those years he probably never got me or acted in differently Maybe it's just me, but I see all that now. " I'll be your cold shield". That amazingly warm feeling when we leaned into each other. I hope you are not just fucking with me. For the billionth time. I am an idiot =.= If you don't get this. Don't even ask me abt it Edit* challenge ! Send me a recent English song that can even hold a candle to the classical oldie stuffs. Sth that has a similar ring and meaning. Bring it

Idoits

In the end we are all idoits. i recall a post, to dance with my father again. And its all so clear now. Our intentions are exactly the same. Hell even our characters are pretty much the same. We are both broken inside, in more or less the same way The way i actually lost my mask and snapped because i did not want to see someone end up the same way as me ( or close) The same way he lost it, concerned about my happiness, afraid that i did not know what was doing A life he does not mind living, but not able to wish it upon someone else. A life i do not mind having Because we are the same, and while it seems we can tell each other everything We dont, cause doing so would invariably cause much friction in between us, So instead we should just keep up appearances to please each other. I guess we just blame ourselves ( or i could blame you for making me like this_ though we would never admit it. We really are ... idoits _______________________________________ They say opposites attract and i know why. we want someone to mend that brokeness that is inside our hearts, To cover for each other where we are lacking, Of course not different enough that the very idea is repulsive. And me being me i shall stop here before the entire checklist for both is filled out here Yes i am an idoit... sigh ~ <3

idoits

The things we do. Really. Fool of a took I mean waking up for breakfast ? Seriously? I wouldnt do that for anybody unless it was serious.