Theme

Nolan's a god at movie making. he has these ridiculous themes upon which he shoots his films. its like insane synergy. I guess thats what i am looking for, the synergy and the feels. Even after all the nonsense he put me through, i cant find it in me to blame him and i still .... i wonder if its because of the loneliness, i just cant seem to be over anybody. the only drive comes from the prestige anyway.

let it go

The cold never bothered me anyway. But I can't feed myself that lie. It has. It always has. It will. Forever and ever. Nope I don't feel more free. In fact I feel Terrible

What achievements mean

The thrill of going 12 in arena. And then it hits you. So what if you are able to do that. Modern / game day / exams whatever. in the end theres no meaning unless i have someone to share it with. i would gladly trade all that for just 5 minutes. So damn jealous when i see those marks. So damn stupid. Why did i ever resolve to try. Why did he have to give me hope. fuck

self righteousness

In the end , everyone is different. Who are you to judge and say you know best what we want. Sure there's valid points but watch the way you condescend without stopping to enquire. Then again we live on a condescending world. That's why I like him I guess. He would just cock his head, take some time to think about it, smile and say ok. He makes me feel so natural and normal. I can totally be myself and he would appreciate and understand it.

Judges Familiar

"It misses nothing and it has no sense of humor." —Barvisa, courtroom scribe sadly i do have a sense of humor. and i definitely know what fucking happened that day. thats not what someone would do even if they are freeizng. you can explain away all the rest if you want but i know exactly what he was thinking. and has obviously made a decision. welcome to bad timing as usual. hopefully i redeem myself soon/ get redeemed. fked.

See the flow in between the lines

its funny, we both hate to be beholden by it. we both can see the flow and probably know exactly what to do in order to make more none of us jump at it because it doesnt satisfy us at all however its a dumb base need as a means to help achieve what will satisfy us and we hate to see the ones we love beholden to it and so we fight

you say it best, when you say nothing at all

That's not quite exactly what it means till you hear out and experience the rest of the song " the smile on your face lets me know that you that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me, the touch of your hand says you'll catch me, whenever I fall. You say it best when you say nothing at all" All those years he probably never got me or acted in differently Maybe it's just me, but I see all that now. " I'll be your cold shield". That amazingly warm feeling when we leaned into each other. I hope you are not just fucking with me. For the billionth time. I am an idiot =.= If you don't get this. Don't even ask me abt it Edit* challenge ! Send me a recent English song that can even hold a candle to the classical oldie stuffs. Sth that has a similar ring and meaning. Bring it