Its all a matter of perspective

fuck all the conformations of this stupid society in the end its all in the fucking mind no matter how you look at it he's clearly smarter than me , so much smarter why did i do it fuck it all, really and thats why xmen is my favourite bunch of superheroes

Mental illness

i dont even know why anymore maybe its just the loneliness that has consumed me, and maybe i should just stay off this for the moment stupid chemicals in my brain

the chase

what people find so difficult i find so easy and yet there are some things i cant attain that everyone seems to get as easy as breathing maybe its the feeling where you want what you cant have, the forbidden fruit is always tasty. but no it isnt that i am searching for something more. ____________ Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it! I just do things. The mob has plans. The cops have plans. Gordon's got plans. Y'know they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their little worlds. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are. So when I say that you and your girlfriend was nothing personal, you know I'm telling the truth. It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and, uh, look where that got you.

Theme

Nolan's a god at movie making. he has these ridiculous themes upon which he shoots his films. its like insane synergy. I guess thats what i am looking for, the synergy and the feels. Even after all the nonsense he put me through, i cant find it in me to blame him and i still .... i wonder if its because of the loneliness, i just cant seem to be over anybody. the only drive comes from the prestige anyway.

let it go

The cold never bothered me anyway. But I can't feed myself that lie. It has. It always has. It will. Forever and ever. Nope I don't feel more free. In fact I feel Terrible

What achievements mean

The thrill of going 12 in arena. And then it hits you. So what if you are able to do that. Modern / game day / exams whatever. in the end theres no meaning unless i have someone to share it with. i would gladly trade all that for just 5 minutes. So damn jealous when i see those marks. So damn stupid. Why did i ever resolve to try. Why did he have to give me hope. fuck

self righteousness

In the end , everyone is different. Who are you to judge and say you know best what we want. Sure there's valid points but watch the way you condescend without stopping to enquire. Then again we live on a condescending world. That's why I like him I guess. He would just cock his head, take some time to think about it, smile and say ok. He makes me feel so natural and normal. I can totally be myself and he would appreciate and understand it.