Out of the pan and into the fire

We really did it didnt we

Chisai no negiwa

A raging/ raising heart. It was a small wish. That has never been fulfilled for 20 years. It wasnt abt being rich ( maybe jokingly wisyfully) or powerful. juz happy. And i dont mean constantly in a perfect world. I juz want a place. Physically that i can call home. The spirit one is enough but not inface of this daily onslaught. Is it so hard or impossible a dream? I think any price is worth it. After all ppl died for their lands right?

Whatever it is sometimes the bad guys win

What if.....?

Wtf like that also fun.... Grow up and get a life!!

Ok nao le me is worried
What if i saw wrong? Blinded by the strange reactions
But you have seen right? Its limited/ not enough..
What if this was a DID? Weee'reeee screeeewed!
But that one line is the difference! Like harry and voldemort
The line:" but i wont even think abt it cause taiga... And he will nvr be out of the picture so thats not the point"
I conceeded.
Now clinging to this in my paranoia
But what if it was a wayang to...?
Some trust jem..


Edit.... I dont know if its even possible anymore, considering things i never considered before.
But really for my freedom i'll fight
And pls guys stay as you have or thats it for me

Mix

o the joy of tcgs amongst other things. stupid jaben closed today and fk the 315 and 425 mixups i am so screwed too much rubbish running through me brain le

DENIED

The problem is you dont listen to anybody, not even yourself in whatever same like money

Self

In the end, they probably are better people than me regardless of need. When will that need evolve into something else? Something more... Sinister

Chemical needs

or mental? in the end it nearly boils down to the same thing.
who am i kidding its a mental war
how i wish...



Nyaan even the kats are so kewl! Maybe i too innocent, or maybe i Juz prefer that version over the truth gozaruyo

Protection

*tap tap tap tap*
looks to my right and wtf?
stuns
and then i realise how much it would suck
thankfully it wasnt her
gotta do sth fast
i almost wish it was
alone


ok maybe i aint conforming to logic anymore
when in doubt press protection?
i wish it was that easy........



the burn .... doesnt suck. it sucks balls


are you mad yet? yes i think you are mad
i am not mad yet....
I LOSE

Cause i love my land and i want it to be free to be free ya!

That soup, i want them to try it(ti soup ppls)
Those mush, i want her to try it,
That curry, i want!
Bak kut teh for them all too!!!!!


Freedom comes at a price, for that free some must be taken away first
But without the bed rock, how to even go abt it?
I want too see them all happies
Ea able to do their own thing
Not needing to worry abt the slightest trival thing
Theres so much alrd why let these add on
Not that mine are very big either
But in retrospect....
This is the first step

Chess

Sometimes, its always pays to play right moves and lay down the right cardd


But theres that invisible line. What happens when we cross it and see everyone as pawns or pieces.., thank god for u guys too keep me sane, love u all man!

Edit: whos to say whose logic is correct? The one that prevails, no that is would mean that madness will, the only way is to go
Around the world and see for yourself. I have done it and i know our logic is right. And we will prevail

Bakuttokiri

Not being able to tadte it of course makes it not as nice

Death stunts!

Everything you do has at least 3 effects, 2 of which is unintended and sometimes uncontrollable.....

"sure , you may have good intentions but dont forget, the kinfe has intentions too!"

Reflections

Mirrors lie or do they? TT


Edit.. Finally, its like the unattainable sunrise, kirei!!

edit ver 2: why u entertain them? ok i am worried

Edit 3! : double judgement impaired all gone fk. If i try remove one? Will spawn new one ! Yaye!:)

River sally

Its not enough le

Appreciation

A person's value

mahou

yea but before i should continue going on let me juz master what i have first

the wheel of fate is turning

and maybe time too. in the midst of all those people who bother to buy, what makes me think that i would be the one who will win it. i dont even have reason enough. its plain stupidity. but my dad does in a fashion. anyone of them

huggies

sometimes, u juz cant do it without unintentionally meaning sth else
as a matter of fact u can but ppl will think u mean sth else
sometimes u juz cant do it for nuts due to familarity
sometimes even i need one from the right people
lets juz go buy diapers=.=

789.64

fuck u understand. if not for u pulling stunts all day it wouldnt even be an issue. fucking counter productive bitches and bastards. wake up ur bloody ideas. o wait i forgot , you cant

Dwarf

Fk electronic doves....
Funny how tribal things are still so important in face.of the.deep shit
But I still believe that they are.. At least to keep us saner

It's been a while, it's waxed its waned but....
Always

magic

a few hiccups but all gd, careful hecklers....


tempted to learn stage magic man

Nerves

I am such a bundle of nerves right now, how i wish i could juz inscribe a fearless rune on my self now? wheres my confidence? I juz feel the stress.... but i know i can do it and i will!

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Shw doesnt feel it, why should i? but then again she has been doing this longer with much moar rehersals. Excuses... Why is it despite the 3 year difference, it seems like i am the junior sometimes?
Edit: in the end.... It seems like only she knows wad i need and empathizes not biased here

Caricature

What mockery.total polar opposite. so much so that its a sick joke . how i wish...


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On a total other note, i wonder if i can pull off the masquerade haha havent done so in a while
STRESS

Snappy

Swing out of it man, totally hate it when i am like this,
getting pissed off and having negetive thoughts about everybody and everything arnd me
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somethings do work though
some works juz like magic ~!

Listless

somehow juz dont feel like doing anything. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
but so bored
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ei u know the huang pu song XD

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

that distance.

i will overcome it. somehow, i will

so painful when theres sth that u cant change in the way

and so was i striving to perfection then?

that is the one " pwetty thing " i will do almost anything to get

everything i ever wanted in one. or so it seems, hopefully i aint wrong

She's~~ supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
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thx for making me why i should continue to try again

Synergy!

thats why i love them so !
another random thing, i realised it in the same shade of eyes also.
that hidden energy
amongst other little things
light it pulls so


these are juz some of my favouritebthings
julie andrews voice is really quite hypnotious
its supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!
um diddle dee dee um diddle aye

Brought it on myself

well birds of a feather flock together. so here i am, dealing with this madness again and again

Rurouni Kenshin

awesome and epic. whoever did this was a genius

New

not the past, not the recent. reforged. but yet i dont feel any different. we'll see how it goes then. all thats left... is a memory of light =)

once again thx so much its as if its a match pair u know, freaking mirrors.

EDIT : fk feel it once again. the waste. its been over a year. its even harder now, i gotta crash down the walls once again. or will it be easier? can i do it? TT after reading it again i realise i really really, despite some stuff really juz been holding the illness at bay. failing hard nao. after so long. much like.. except i dont fk ppl up while i am at it.

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i dont care to share in the shit with those who deserve it le
patience end