What achievements mean

The thrill of going 12 in arena. And then it hits you. So what if you are able to do that. Modern / game day / exams whatever. in the end theres no meaning unless i have someone to share it with. i would gladly trade all that for just 5 minutes. So damn jealous when i see those marks. So damn stupid. Why did i ever resolve to try. Why did he have to give me hope. fuck