reversal

in the end when everything that makes it worth it can simply turn into a curse. Every little thing. Well no matter life is so short anyway .. Such a long time since that feeling set in

Right

Come on man i have the right to mourn even if u dont see the fucking point. sth is seriously fk wrong already. you have became cuendillar. wtf la dont u hurl such words when u dont even know wtf u are saying
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you know why we have to lie so much about all the stupid things. come on man i cant even tell u my friend passed away without nearly starting a fight? you disappoint me man

Fake

Everything seemed so plastic, from the flowers to the faces, even the words... i mean how many times have the same fk words been spoken over and over again. what a hypocrite.. what a fake. "reality is only an illusion, albeit a very persistant one". This is the first time... it wont be the last. the list is already rolling always headed the list will be "Wesley Phay"... in some screwed sense the first charge i failed. Now i can totally see how the descriptions in storys go. From now on i shall do my utmost to (??) Life is too short already.. what else is there left?

what next?

horrified at myself for being able to think like that at a time like this. There was so much there but not given a chance.. Not even from oneself.. Is this it?

Life sucks.... or does it?

was it really just perception? cause now those little bits dont seem to be worth it anymore. this incessant nonsense is so much worse than the past. or was it because i was younger?
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how did everything just suddenly turn upside down?

Silver Cord and Rings

guess thats whats happening. siao liao la

Unproductive

Seems like the older i get the lazier i am. what happened? is it cause i started deciding it wasnt worth it?

Time management

In the end theres no difference and it came back to byte me anyway GG

The pathetic excuse for an existance

last/2nd last chap of wot, will type it out when i feel like it. New com at last=)
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sc2 story writer is damn good

temperament

sometimes certain things just rile me up even if they are right. gotta change that quite abit.

AND WHY HAVE I NOT STARTED REVISING

190

just when every thing seemed worse than the usual shit the 6th 190 came along. guess there may just be hope after all. All my plans are all upside down now + no communications is making it a hell lot harder. Need another 190 miricle for chem common test man. hope i can do well for gp tomorrow

chemistry

wtf is this every thing just clicked off. Barely a week left and still on holiday!

I'll turn space

looks like things may finally be looking up after all. but how to bend time and space? zz common test round the corner somemore.... hope i dont kill myself

CT

Calamity trigger already with common test just 2 wks away and i am still hibernating and slacking. just great=.=

Alive

The ticking of the clock the roar of noises among other stuff. epicness. only to realise that today is sunday and not friday wtf la every day of the week there is school wtf la

checkmate

skewering , insane knight usage and force end game zzz guess i dont have enough practice

Tempo

just that little bit more. and aft it all built up zz

dismal

10 -20 sec and touch move? Wtf man seriously gotta buck up

saturday

first time i connected to pjpublic lol!

emotional corruption

theses always some level of corruption somewhere. That besides what do i get to keep in the end? I know i will lose when this started but losing more than i intend to give is just infuriating. I dont even get to keep anything, materials , views , hopes , not even a friend wtf. As a matter of fact even my week end plan gets messed up. Only good things i get to keep so far is chinese a level getting a b and the 190 helix cut. And i really got to start studying especially after seeing result taking today. Hope i dont fk up tomorrow and sun chess tournament either or it will be a greater waste.

maybe?

maybe he can understand repayment?

even the way you say the word friends.. If i didnt see it then its no wonder you dont have any now. Life in such regret.. Terribly misguided due to some event. I probably am to and its a little bit of both. To teach laughter and tears. Looks like tears are out of the window already and laughter is soon to go . "life is like a dick , sometimes it just gets hard for no reason"... "life sucks.. Then you die." yea it is all that simple

useless

guess thats all there is for you. Use. Probably even me by living through me and when things fail etc. Look what happened. How much have you changed? Or did i just not see it before.

warriors

now i see even more why i loved erin hunter's first series of warriors. Only the first series does relate. Looks like we are in a bluestar situation

Baka Baka yurenai dei kurasai!

For your benefit, for our benefit. its never ever for his benefitm, for her benefit, for others benifit not anymore. never. you can never share already. You will never understand what a favour is anymore. something that definitely is to our disadvantage but benefits others. you will never understand anymore
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Baka wa anata des !