final fantasy

finding it hard to keep to the 3 oaths. Especially here. And maybe try a bit harder for real. But i will have to, too bad if anyone figures it out =p. Cant sleep once again. Even if its fiction, those feelings are sure so real, its not just the physical but also mental and emotional. Shocks me that there are so many great writers out there. Maybe i should give it a go. My brain is all fried dried sick and messed up worse than scrambled eggs.. But whos to tell me and proof to me whether its right or wrong? Myself? In this state? You gotta be joking