stick and carrot

whats there to work for the carrot is non existant? The carrot that i am looking for is not something you can provide.. Not anymore in the least.. It all began ever since then 4 years ago, the butterfly effect on that decision was so huge that no one could have foreseen. It changed us for ever. All four of us. As for you, all that stepping on made you want to step on others while for us 2, we just want to avoid it and prevent others from similar fates. It may not be the "strength " that you think but its enough.. Thats why my brain is broken this way and what you can come up with nao will never fix it. On a side note, maybe thats why i am so attracted. I see somewhat an avatar of my former self. What i was, what is , what may be. (which may yet fall under the shadow. ) let the dragon ride again on the winds of time