you're a dawg, i am a kat, thats it

WARNING! A TOTAL MULTIPLE LAYERED MEANING POST. ( 2-6 level)
and so, history repeats itself. except this time in a more brutal way due to the past 4 years of knowing and attatchment. whyyy, when theres something so much more beautiful thats calling out but we choose to ignore it. i decided. i'm going back, to fly free, to be there when they need it, not to carry the weight of the world when i dont have to. especially when i put it on myself. it drains somewhat, cause i dont want to fk things up and hurt people too. sadly i am in a situation where i am forced, no choice. there are just some fundamental differences that will nvr change. i think ( mind read) , u feel. but it works the reverse too. its just a matter of achieving a fine balance. thats a cat for you, its just too bad. i probably regret letting myself be caught so off guard and in the moment. things just lined up that way. why cant things just be the way they used to be. that dream. that may just or just nvr happen