Robotic

At the end of the day, really robotic what a joke, i really like opposites do i? in both senses, Just goes to show how desperate i really am

The hardest test of willpower

Just sitting/lying there watching him drop his defense. i thought i could do it all day, i definitely could but that urge which stirred within me was way worse than any addiction/ or lakerol cravings ever. i am hopeless am i. On another note, in a totally frustating way, at night, when i am doing sth, JUST FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE. got anything ONE SHORT FKING SETTLE IT DAMMIT

exchange

o well ~

Turning

Did you see them,going off to fight, Children of the barricade who didnt last the night Did you see them ,lying where they died Someone used to cradle them, and kissed them when they cried Did you see them lying side by side~ so easy to just , a little word here a little word there... but i wont or i will nvr be able to face them. him esp

Song

You know sth is really wrong, when you start dreaming in musicals. it seemed so natural. fear of anything is probably just fear of the unknown for me =.=

they dont make stuff like that anymore

what if what those jap music i listen to and find meaning, is equivalent to the shit i have been scoffing at in current eng pop shit ? and my cold anger is only toyou guys lol....

And rain will make the flowers~ bloom

you have no idea how happy that 9 lines made me, even if you just mean them as they are=)